Friday, April 13, 2018

I KEEP HOLDING ON!!!

It's been a while but I'm back. It's been hard for me to write but now it's time that I return! I know that there are others out there that have and are experiencing similar situations as myself.

It's coming up on 3 years since my Mother transitioned and since that time both of my Grandmothers have also transitioned.




I'm still dealing and healing. My co-worker passed away on Wednesday which really triggered some emotions for me.

It's hard to understand someone's pain when you're dealing with your own pain. It took me losing my Mom for me to understand some of her world. I held things against her for some years for leaving the family. But now I realize that she wasn't trying to hurt anyone she was coping the best way that she knew how. 

A lot of things happened during my Mother's illness and her transition. I try to be careful about how I speak about certain things but just know that I have come a long way. When the time is right I think I'll be able to express properly some of the things that I experienced without it looking like I'm pointing fingers at others. I'm not just dealing with losing her but unresolved issues that we had.

I'm thankful to God for the emotional support that I have in my life. A place to express my feelings and where I'm at with everything!

My Dad told me "I think in time you will be able to support others, but it's no rush."

So, I just acknowledge where I am at and I won't pretend to be something that I'm not!


LOVE & LIGHT!



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