Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Time It Won't Wait, Tomorrow is Too Late

When you're young you don't fully understand life as it is. Things happen and you deal with it (or don't deal with it) the best way that you know how. Now that I'm 30 and that my mom is gone I'm finally understanding some things about life. Things you couldn't possibly understand until you have matured.

I realized that you can hold something against someone and not even know that you're holding it against them. It's just becomes part of who you are and it affects emotions and interactions with that person. Many times we don't mean to hurt others, we are just dealing with pain inside.

I'm now able to better understand who my mother was and it saddens me that God had to take her away for me to see it. Despite, all of our flaws and imperfections a bond of love cannot be broken between two individuals. That bond of love with my mother brought me home to be with her and I will always be grateful for that time with her.

She gave me a gift, she showed me how to be gentle, forgiving, and loving. What I got from her, I needed to go into my thirties with a new perspective. There has to be balance in everything. Walls can't stay up forever. Forgiveness is something that you always have to work at, even when you think you have forgiven a person.

More importantly, this whole experience has taught me that you must seek to live a balanced life. Everything is connected. You must be spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically healthy in order to live a prosperous life.

I have forgiven myself for things that I didn't do or say, things that I didn't know to do or say. One thing that I do know is that she wanted the best for me, that she believed in me, and that she loved me. God didn't take her unexpectedly. He knew that there were some things to be worked on, lessons to be learned and he gifted our family that time to express things that had built up over the years.

Whatever you plan to do, do it now. You might feel like you have all the time in the world, but you don't. I could have never imagined my mother being gone from this side before I turned thirty. Your life can change forever. Mine changed drastically and very fast.

Talk more to the ones that you care about, ask the questions, explore their mind, and love them unconditionally. For none of us are promised tomorrow, and each day that we get is a blessing. So it's up to us now to decide what we will do with the lessons that were learned.


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  1. James 1:17
    Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning. The Lord knows what we need and knows how to get it to us, and it is up to us if we want to receive it or not. I'm glad for you that you recognize his gifts in your life:). May you continue to grow and flow:)
    MUCH LOVE Dad:)


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